Hello family and friends who love and pray for Ryan ~
Yesterday, April 13 – Ryan had his 67th round of chemotherapy. He is such a fighter. Today he is in Houston meeting with is medical team, and having an MRI on his brain to ensure that the chemotherapy has been working to keep the disease away! Results will be given tomorrow.
I think it’s fitting that one year ago today, he posted the below post. It’s a good reminder that even through all that he has faced in the last 5 years – he still maintains a positive attitude, a clear outlook on his future and a dedication and love for his family like none I have ever seen before:
What makes me happy, especially over the course of the past 5 years of fighting, is the coming togetherness of people. It’s not just for me, it’s for my family, but it still doesn’t stop there. The people and world I know are of friendship, compassion, love, understanding, respect, humility and strength. The vale of the web and anonymity of the internet creates a personality that isn’t real. People aren’t what is portrayed on the news, nor are people who fight, argue and thrust insults on FB or elsewhere really that way. Yes, we all say dumb things, but we learn. We learn from each other time and time again. If life were easy, it wouldn’t be called living.
In life, real life, people are reserved, respectful and full of compassion. This is the world I know. In all honesty, I don’t think it’s the cancer or my words or any person’s journey. We are led to believe we live in a world full of heartless creatures who have no understanding towards another. This fast paced world has us believe we only think about ourselves. I disagree, and that is not what I see every day. I mean, actually SEE and witness. We are a good people. Don’t ever forget that.
The support network I have is astounding, and it literally humbles me to my very core. It creates a sense of euphoria that not only assists in the mental battle, but the physical battle as well. It creates a situation where I have no choice but to keep moving forward against whatever odds I come across. From initial diagnosis, to rounds of chemo, to surgery, to brain radiation…. I never had a choice to give up. I never had a chance to second guess my drive to succeed and win against cancer.
Lord knows I was beat to a pulp many times by negative news. I have cried more times than I can count. I have held my family so tight and close so many times thinking the worst possible thoughts of death and a life cut short. Through the grace of God and through the love of the people in my life, I have always and am always able to get up, lift my head, and march forward. Together, we have always been in this together.
My happy thought today is the culmination of every single time I have been knocked down, and somebody has been there to help me out. I won’t give up. I cannot give up. For that reason, I am alive in every sense of the word.
Thank you for always sharing you. I love you, the lives you lead, and the love you show. This life is worth fighting for. Always remember that. (April 13, 2014)
Please continue to keep Ryan, Andrea, Landon and Logan in your thoughts and prayers as they go through the next 2 days of doctor’s appointments, scans, blood draws, etc., and GOD WILLING, for Ryan to have the best birthday gift he could ask for – celebrating his 33rd birthday on Thursday, April 16th with No Evidence of Disease!!!