Bad Scan Results This Time: Prayers, Please

It’s been a very long day. Sadly, I have horrible news. The spot that was seen on the last scan has grown and become more defined.

Even more horrifying, is that there is a larger spot that grew from zero to large in a matter of 4 weeks time.

I had the schedule wrong, and my appointment with my neurosurgeon wasn’t until tomorrow. Thankfully, his NP is amazing and called Dr. Lang in the OR. He answered, and reviewed the scans. He was obviously not liking what he saw.

So now, we scramble for appointments. Since it grew to almost 2cm in 4 weeks, time is not on our side. I am keeping my original appointment with Dr. Lang (neurosurgeon) tomorrow, and have scheduled an appointment with my radiation oncologist (Dr. Li), who happens to come back in from vacation later today. We will then scramble to set up a gammaknife procedure as soon as possible, hopefully later this week.

I’m actually very scared this time around. It’s growing and spreading quickly. We need to stop it here. I also have a suspicion that it is being fed from somewhere else in the body. Brain lesions of AS don’t just show up out of nowhere.

So, the good? Thanks be to God, once again, for all of the little things: Dr. Ravi insisting on a short interval MRI (who knows how large it would have been in another month), thank you to me for messing up my schedule (it allowed us to get preliminary results today, and get the ball rolling for surgery), and thank you for my beautiful life, wife and children.

For now, I am scared. I am crying. My life is in a big cloud, and I cannot even think about Andrea and the boys – it just hurts my heart too much. I just want to crawl into a hole.

Please pray for a miracle, and pray for my family.

I love you all.

Ryan

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9 Responses to Bad Scan Results This Time: Prayers, Please

  1. Briones family says:

    Dear Ryan,
    You are not fighting alone, God is with you all the time. May He give you and your family strength to continue fighting against this terrible disease. Praying for you and your family. Hugs!

  2. Christine says:

    So very sorry to hear this, Ryan. You are such a blessing and we continue to pray for a much needed miracle. Please hang onto Jesus and know He is with you…He will never leave nor forsake you.

  3. Leann Kirkendall says:

    This is hard to believe! Thankfully, people seem to be cooperating in doing what needs
    to be done! We will continue to pray for your beautiful wife and sons and you, just like
    we have been all along.
    We love you,
    Leann

  4. kathy stehlin says:

    Ryan and family we at SDSC at Harper hosp are always praying for you stay strong . the good lord is on your side it may not feel like it but believe me he is with YOU

  5. Jac says:

    Praying for you and your family during this rough time. Keep your head up and stay positive if you can brother. Hugs.

  6. Rachel Peters says:

    I am so sorry you have to keep dealing with this nightmare… as always I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers 🙁

  7. Ingrid Hansen says:

    Ryan, my prayers are with you and your family. I believe miracles happen. I will pray for one. Your bravery, and love with remain in my heart forever.

  8. Renee Levasseur says:

    I pray for you every night and I believe in Miracles. Our Great God Can Do Anything! He is all we need.

  9. Christine says:

    I thought of you while watching this inspirational video…Hoping for the best for you, Ryan….

    http://espn.go.com/video/clip?id=11225895&ex_cid=null

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