Good morning and happy Monday to everyone! I pray this message finds you happy and enjoying life as much as we are. These last two rounds have been a roller coaster to say the least. From being hospitalized for 8 days with a serious illness to spending the most amazing days with all of our loving, caring and dedicated friends and family through the most amazing fundraisers and benefits. The good always outweighs the bad. I can promise you that.
I will have to keep this short as I am in the waiting area to get my scan done. 3 months of waiting once again to see how my disease has been reacting to treatment. Three months of relief from a very agonizing and stressful day. Its a very scary day and one I cannot explain the internal struggle I go through. What has it been doing? Has it spread? Has it improved? What is the next step??
The last question is essential to me: what is the next step? The other questions will be answered without a doubt. However, trying to stay one step ahead is a fundamental part of my getting by. It allows me to know and contemplate with whatever the result, the path in treatment has an option in both ways. It says all is not lost. God already knows the answer, but I need to keep my sanity in order to function.
Life is never certain, but you can always choose a different path. Even up to the end I will have decisions to make if my life comes down to that scenario. Hope is paramount and should never be taken lightly. If anything, it can give you an opportunity to smile and enjoy life for what it really is. It always gives you an opportunity to smile, laugh, and love because there may be a small glimmer of hope for a radical treatment.
This hope is always enough to enjoy life. It is enough to allow yourself to struggle and perservere through the hardest times. Doctors may have a prognosis. The statistics may by grim. Unfortunately, these numbers and consultations are medically and morally needed for a strong doctor/patient relationship and to allow yourself to face both realities. However, do not ever discount hope. Do not ever, under any circumstance, give up. It is not worth it. You must always fight. You must always look for the good. Above all, you must never let someone deprive you of this simple but very effective emotion.
We will all have our days like I am experiencing today. They may be different in caliber and extent, but, nevertheless, they stop your life for a moment. Most importantly, they are still very much in need of hope and God. No problem is ever too small or minuscule. They are to be faced head on, or they can tear your life apart.
Through this all, I have learned so much about love and life; about the value of friendship and support; about the value of a single persons outreach to another. We are very blessed with the amount of support we have and continue to get. I will never forget what you all have done and continue to do for us.
My wife and my family are my solid ground. My friends and support network are what keeps things moving. We have a very long two weeks with a lot of traveling and the potential for good and bad news. One day at a time, but it won’t be easy.
Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Please continue to share our story to whomever will listen. You are all perfect compliments in my life. You all fill a void in my heart, mind, and sould.You have shown us the true potential of our society. It is truly humbling and amazing to be with you on this journey. Please ask God to be with all of us in our travels, in the decisions we make, and over the hearts, minds, and hands of the physicians we will be seeing.
Have a wonderful day everyone! Thank you for being so affectionate, loving, and caring towards us. I never thought I would be in this position, but since I am, I would not have it any other way than to have my family and friends to the extent we do. We love you all so very much! 🙂