Sorry for the Delay… We love you all!

Good morning everyone!  I certainly hope your lives are filled with never ending joy, happiness and love.  I hope you are constantly surrounded by the blessings I get to witness each and every day.  Some days are harder than others, but I have to thank my beautiful wife, children, mother, aunt, and mother-in-law for always being there, lifting me up and helping us get through the everyday tasks of living life.  Along with our enormous support group, they are what keep me pushing further along.

I apologize for the long lapse between posts.  It has been a very busy and draining 8th round.  I have a few projects I am working on.  We did some traveling, and now we are preparing for my re-staging scan in Houston on Monday (November 5).

I’m not really sure you can prepare for a scan of your body to let you know the status of the battle between your very existence verses a deadly disease.  It’s the most grueling thing to ever have to go through.  It still does not seem real, but it is what our lives consist of now.  We seem to manage, but these days are never easy for us.  This scan is especially taking its toll on my mind, body, and spirit.  Without going into much detail, a person whom I now consider a great friend has the same disease as I do.  They recently received a very big setback concerning scan results about a week and a half ago.  It has spread significantly, but they will continue to fight!  They were diagnosed at the same time as my recurrence back in March of this year.  It is a very unpredictable cancer, and it can change without notice.  We are doing the best we can to fight it, and I pray God has mercy on my family and I.

I am scared, nervous, anxious, drained, and pushed to my limits at times.  However, I am also filled and surrounded with love, happiness, joy, and family.  Fortunately, as difficult as it gets at times, the good have always outweighed the bad.  I am so proud and thankful for my wife’s courage, strength, love, and level of care with this journey.  I am forever indebted to my mother and aunt for all they have to endure with our lives so intrinsically intertwined now.  My mother-in-law is an extension of Andrea and I, and her love and level of care is unparalleled.  I am forever grateful for the amount of support, love, and offers of help from all of you.  You never go through life wanting to witness such a journey, but should you have to, I hope and pray you have a network of people as strong and dedicated as ours.  We have been blessed!

Although I have not written in a while, you have all been on my mind, and I constantly read your messages!  I often hear I wish I could do more for; so I set out to prove how the collective is much more powerful than any one individual.  I’ve long wanted to keep all of your cards, messages, notes, emails, etc. by my side, everywhere I go.  They are all uplifting, encouraging, and allow me to smile when I need it the most.  I did just that.

I now have every single message since the beginning of this recurrence.  To date, I have over 840 scanned cards, emails, texts, letters in my computer with me at all times.  How amazing is that?  This averages over 4 messages per day.  To me, this is astounding.  We are never left alone.  God is always looking after us and put each of you in our lives at specific times for specific reasons.  Thank you so much for all of your love!

As for my next passion I am working on, I want to be an advocate for my own health.  I want to raise awareness for my disease, and help fund research for as long as I possibly can.  The implications and treatments that could stem from angiosarcoma treatments are exponential.

With that said, I started a Cycle for Survival Team in Chicago on February 9 (our team site is (http://mskcc.convio.net/goto/AngiosarcomaChicago).  Cycle is a non-profit whose purpose is to raise funds for rare cancer.  I am honored to spend the day with those already committed to cycling with me.  We have a wonderful and growing team of people!  There is no fitness level requirement, and you can always go at your own pace.  I would be ecstatic if I had to start a second team!  We have time slots from 30 minutes up to the full 4 hours.  More importantly, any funds our team raises goes directly into funding research for my specific disease.  I am passionate about learning all I can to fight this, and we need help to continue the research.

If you are in the Chicago area around February 9, please consider joining our Cycle for Survival Team.  It is an indoor event, and we are cycling during the afternoon shift starting at 1pm.  Please contact me with ANY questions (517 242 8146 or r0humph1@gmail.com).  To join, just go to our team site with Cycle for Survival (http://mskcc.convio.net/goto/AngiosarcomaChicago) and click on Join the Team.  Our team password is “curecancer”.  It would be an honor to be by your side in this fight!

I want this to be a great time for everyone.  If you cannot join us that day, please consider being an advocate for our team and helping us raise funds.  All donations are 100% tax deductible.  Everyone can donate through our team website, or by searching for our team: Angiosarcoma Awareness with Team Captain: Ryan Humphrey.

A very good friend of mine has made business cards with our team information on them.  If you would like some to pass out, please let me know, and I will gladly mail you some!  If you are in marketing, we could always use help getting the word out through any media we can.  I apologize for the long monologue on our Cycle for Survival event, but I wish to do very well for this cause.  Thank you for any and all help you can provide!

As for the plan ahead with me, we have my re-staging scan this upcoming Monday (November 5) at MD Anderson in Houston.  The scan begins at 4pm CT.  We will most likely get the results the following morning during our consultation with Dr. Ravi at 830am.  It is going to be a very long two days for everyone.  The scans will determine the next course of action with treatment.  We have plenty of options, but any progression scares me to no end.

You are all on my mind, and we so greatly appreciate you standing steadfast with us on this journey.  My life is not how I had imagined, but I know God is taking care of us.  We are blessed beyond belief on so many levels.  I have been given the most amazing wife, most incredible children, a mother with endless love, an aunt whose passion for my survival is remarkable, and an overall life worth being thankful for every day.  We all have our moments and obstacles to get through, but we will never have to do it alone.  Thank you!  We truly love you all, and have a wonderful weekend!

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9 Responses to Sorry for the Delay… We love you all!

  1. Donna Holmes says:

    Love you, praying for you and the family and everyone at MDA this next week. Safe travels, good news! I Know You Can!

  2. Deb Manning says:

    My sister is married to Kirk (Humphrey). I have been following your progress through her and your postings. The courage it takes to just explain some of your ordeals is mind boggling to me. I had surgery on my back for the second time on October 4- and keep thinking of you and your journey- and your selflessness in sharing with all of us. I’ve had so many prayers and good thoughts and love directed to me- so much more than I deserve and can use myself-so I have been sharing all the extras, and directing them to you and your family, along with so many others who have need greater than mine. My troubles and challenges and inconveniences are minuscule relative to yours. My husband is a quadriplegic- confined to a wheelchair since age 19, he is 50 now. His challenges are greater than mine, yet still don’t hold a candle to yours and others. Please continue to share-even the smallest of triumphs or setbacks. I have invited so many friends and friends of friends to lift you and ALL of your family up in prayer. God has been using you, touching so many lives, making so many aware that it is He who is in charge. Your family has been inspiring to me -the way they are circling you with love, prayers, and as much life as you are humanly able to partake in whatever the amount of time God has planned for you. I continue to pray for your miracle- that you will grow old, and share the lives of your beautiful children. To share in the milestones in their lives. My home is in PA, but have spent the majority of the last two years in LA. I would enjoy the chance to share and help you in any way that I am able. May God bless you and continue to hold you in his loving arms while still sharing your time with us. Keep the fight strong-you have so many behind you, and so much still to live for. I hope to meet you in person at some Humphrey gathering soon, for now, know that I am praying and spreading hopeful prayers for your full recovery, that this is just one of those “humps” in the road for you!
    Much Love in God,
    Deb

  3. Christine says:

    It was great to hear an update, Ryan. My love and prayers continue to go with you this week…..God bless and keep the faith.

  4. Grandma & Grandpa Davis says:

    Dear Ryan,
    It was so good to hear how you are doing. We pray for you everyday. We also thank God for the wonderful support you have. We will be praying for God to give you comfort and peace as you go for the scan on Monday. Keep trusting in God to get you through this. We love you!

  5. Kim says:

    It’s always so good to hear from you Ryan! You have been truly blessed with AMAZING and GIVING people who love you! They are impressive!! You don’t know how much I wish I was going to be in town for the Cycle for Survival team. I know it will be a huge success! Our prayers continue to be with you always!! You are never far from our thoughts! We love you so much!! Miracles happen every day and we pray your complete healing is one of them! The love you are experiencing is an extension of God’s Ultimate love for you! He is the best! Our Savior will continue to walk with you, Ryan, as go for your scan and results. He will be there holding you up! He will never let you go! For eternity He will always be with us!! For that I am so thankful!!!! Much love, strength, hope, and peace to you Ryan!!! We Love YOU!!!!

  6. Judy David says:

    Hey Ryan. Joe and I always review your site to see how your progress is coming and pray for you continuously….you faith and love of family is so great…we wish you well tomorrow! Joe and Judy

  7. Briones family says:

    Dear Ryan:
    Our prayers are with you and your family, God is with you. We’d like to help in any way, please let us know. Your neighbors on Hawks Ridge.
    Psalm 46
    1 God is our refuge and strength,
    an ever-present help in trouble.
    2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
    and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
    3 though its waters roar and foam
    and the mountains quake with their surging.[c]
    4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
    the holy place where the Most High dwells.
    5 God is within her, she will not fall;
    God will help her at break of day.
    6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
    he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
    7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.
    8 Come and see what the LORD has done,
    the desolations he has brought on the earth.
    9 He makes wars cease
    to the ends of the earth.
    He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
    he burns the shields[d] with fire.
    10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”
    11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.
    Jeremiah 29:11
    “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

    Isaiah 40:31
    But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
    1 Corinthians 13:12
    Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

  8. Rachel Peters says:

    I just said a prayer that God touches you with His healing hands and your scan shows no trace of cancer. I will be thinking of you and your family today…. and as always, keep you in my prayers….(in case you didn’t know, Lisa is my cousin and Jan and Ed Davis are my Aunt and Uncle)

  9. Grandpa Humphrey and Grandma Humphrey says:

    Ryan, we think about you every day, and pray for y0u and the family every day.
    People in our community that contributed to the golf outing are always asking
    how is your Grandson doing, so you have family that you don’t even know, but are
    interested in your progress. We appredciate your updates very much, you are
    a wonderful individual. Keep the faith.
    God bless you and your family.

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